Growth is not comfortable
THIS SHIT AINT FOR THE FAINT OF HEART
I am absolutely, wholly, 100% of the time FOR growth.
I love change. I love new experiences. I love meeting new versions of myself. I love discovering. I love changing my mind.
And… There’s a part of me that thinks I should be able to feel good through the whole process. Right?! Learn, grow, heal, progress… it should be all pride, confidence, and joy. Right?!
In reality, it’s a solid 50/50.
Today I noticed myself wanting to rush through the confusion, frustration, hurt, loss, fear, loneliness, and overwhelm of enforcing new boundaries in my life. I wanted to distract myself from the real experience and chase dopamine elsewhere until I felt “good” again.
But then I realized… if I wait until it “feels good” to be present with myself and the experience, I am going to spend HALF of my life NOT ENJOYING MY LIFE.
That is straight up crazy.
It doesn’t have to feel good for me to appreciate it. To lean in and really experience it. To hold the moment like it matters just as much as moments of joy or excitement or wonder.
So…
This is a reminder to myself that it’s not supposed to be all rainbows and sunshine. I want to feel the discomfort and yuck, too. Every “unpleasant” emotion; I want to see it, feel it, explore it, know it, and eventually release it.
I definitely don’t want to resist it or run away from it.
I’m bringing my not-so-faint heart back to the dance floor and getting my salsa on with the mix of emotions that are currently accompanying new boundaries that support my next set of goals.
I choose to dance with the unpleasant.
I choose to feel it and appreciate it all!
🌿To your journey and mine… let’s not miss out on the juiciness of the “not good” parts!